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[30 Nov 2009|02:12pm] |
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I had a bad bad BAD vision at school and fell over and when I woke up I was in hospital
Now they think I have epilepsy (I learnt to spell that) and they want me to take medicines
Blech.
I saw a war and death, but it meant change. Well, some of it meant change. I saw a building with a tall tower fall down and crush a pyramid... I don't wanna talk about it anymore...
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[15 Nov 2009|04:50pm] |
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[Private to Tiresias]
Dear Tiersias,
I couldn't mail you a letter so I thought I'd write one here and you can see it.
I had to look up what Patroclus was.
I don't know how to say thank you to you over the internet and make it sound as sincere as I mean it, so I will just say thank you. Kit isn't anyone to you, Theo isn't, I'm not, but you still did this for us.
Me and Theo and Kit and Max have only had each other for all this time, and no one's thought about all of us the way you did after just speaking over the internet just once.
So thank you.
Ollie
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[12 Nov 2009|06:57pm] |
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Kit is... out of hospital. He is not well.
Still no more gigs, Theo is still... silent. The colour stone. Kit is miserable with him, guilty, I see , weighing down on poor shoulders like... bricks.
Fairytale books opened up, swallowed the world whole, it doesn't matter.
Families dissolving from ignorance and ignoring, it doesn't matter.
Yesterday fights today fights tomorrow... it doesn't matter.
Kit matters and he almost wasn't here and that would have broken the world, a crack in the world. Theo needs needs Kit or the world will end.
I'm hiding the cuts very well I think.
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[02 Nov 2009|09:44pm] |
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all gigs, all gigs cancelled, dominos all fell down... dominos...
oh, Kit
slow disease, weighed heavy on him and now he's in medical green smell, beep beep beeping, silent, white under snow, and Theo is a fjord of misery
No Dormice gigs, sorry, family member almost suicided
Could have have have should have stopped it!
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[19 Oct 2009|07:58pm] |
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ghosts - laura marling |
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The old one has gone...
The one with eyes of flame has gone.
Theo, I'm sorry if this is how I made you feel when I ran away. I'm so sorry.
Dormice want to start playing again, does anyone want a band to play at somewhere, something?
I've had no dreams but I have this feeling that I'm being... followed?
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[09 Sep 2009|07:57pm] |
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LOCKED FROM THEO!
OMG! my brother is such a JERK! I TOLD him I didn't wanna go to school today, I TOLD him the crossed knives - AGAIN - and the bat through the house and the rooster and, AND, then I put my shirt on inside out but he STILL made me go and I was right but he won't let me stay home tomorrow or the day after. He's making me go.
So I'm going to run away.
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[30 Aug 2009|05:23pm] |
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im covered in... claw marks? and the visions hurt. i think there might be sounds or words but i don't know what they are cause it just hurts.
I've been sleeping. I wish I didn't have to but I have but they haven't stopped yet.
i dreamt lights that hurt my eyes and the crashing sounds of bottles and people being torn apart
and sex.
the only good thing about the dreams was sometimes I thought I felt the sun.
I never want to sleep again. I might have to take something for it, i don't know. Someone could give me something. I can pay. I can.
We had a gig on but Theo made us cancel because of me and all these cuts.
And I have school soon. I don't think I'm going to go.
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[08 Aug 2009|05:05am] |
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[Pvt to Paul?]
It's not the angel, I asked. He said there's no other ones who would either.
I slept and more dreams came but they slid away before I could write them down. Scratches all over me now but I son't care anymore think they're anything.
Thank you for your help
[/private]
I missed singing but Max got us some gigs lined up.
King, I haven't heard from you recently, are you okay? Are we?
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[03 Aug 2009|08:37pm] |
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[Private to Alex:] Did you do this to me? These cuts all over me? In the weird languages?
why?
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[01 Aug 2009|12:20am] |
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Had a horrible dream last night, a dream about dad, which is weird cause I don't remember him at all. He didn't look like me though, didn't look like Theo either, he was much taller. Uhm. Darker. I don't know. It felt weird. I saw him in a mirror but it wasn't me.
I woke up with 'Ծեր հայրն այստեղ է' on my shoulder this time, but round the front. I've got used to it now, but it still freaks Theo out. It's just annoying. I don't even care what it means anymore. Don't care what any of them mean.
Kit's been around more often than our social worker and it's nice to see them both happy for once.
I wonder what Theo would say if I asked if I could drop out of school and work my way round America instead...
... he says 'no'.
ooc: Armenian, trans - "old father is here"
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[17 Jul 2009|06:33pm] |
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I am Terrified - IAMX |
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My head really hurts
I dreamt that the sky and the earth fell together and space was empty cold and dark. It ended everything. I don't think it meant change, I don't know. Whatever is changing I'm afraid.
I dreamt of a table that was all laid out pretty but the fork was missing.
Then everything dissolved into static vertigo, which is that pretty lady but I don't know why
I don't know anything about what I see. Someone out there must know.
No cuts on me this morning though.
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[02 Jul 2009|09:08pm] |
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The words have stopped appearing, cuts have stopped happening at least where Theo can see them
Dreams still coming. Rainbows and dragonflies. Cake and confetti. And rain.
Strawberry and vanilla children are burnt backwards?
I feel like I've lost something. At least there's no school anymore.
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[20 May 2009|09:07pm] |
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It happened again!
انت تؤمن أن هناك إله واحد انت تفعل جيدا: وأنهم أيضا نؤمن كل.
All down my leg
I'm scared and Theo thinks bad things about it
Not going to sleep anymore
(OOC: Thou believest that there is one God; thou doest well: the devils also believe, and tremble.)
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[19 May 2009|09:21pm] |
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Lock'd from Theo
HE'S SUCH A JERK!
I told him about the, about the shadow and the cold and the three crows, the emeralds and crossed knives and everything awful and he's STILL MAKING ME GO TO SCHOOL!
Everything is bad!!
ETA
Theo: I'm sorry I yelled at you, I'll go to school, I love you lots. I'm sorry
andscared
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[15 May 2009|05:57pm] |
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Theo's angry at me but I didn't mean to do it, I just suddenly woke up and there ( it ) was.
I didn't mean to do it!
(ooc trans: Woe to the inhabitants of the earth and the sea! For the devil has come down to you, having great wrath, because he knows that he has a short time)
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[13 May 2009|07:34am] |
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I was all excited about playing and singing for the one who looked back but I don't feel well suddenly and I don't know why
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[08 May 2009|09:37pm] |
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Not, NOT going to sleep for a very long time
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[26 Apr 2009|03:31am] |
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The sun fell from the sky chasing after a comet and the planets died. A cat and a dog were married but they were torn apart by rats... twelve children in Pakistan blew themselves up cause they were being curious and... ravens and wolves.
It was scary so I had to crawl into Theo's bed and sleep in with him til the shaking went away
Locked from Theo
Kit's songs are very good for the Dormice but he looks so tired all the time, like he hasn't been sleeping. Theo looks like he hasn't had any coffee for weeks.
I'm worried.
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